Wanderer to Wonderer…

It has been some time since I last wrote my post about being a Lost Wanderer.

To be honest, it’s been six months now since Allah jee revealed the realities of ‘conflicts’ and ‘dumbness’. It’s been six months that I was made to start my journey from darkness to light (Alhamdullilah)… as Allah SWT says:

God leads believers from darkness to Light. [2:257]

I may not have been a strong believer. But there is one thing which we need to remember ALWAYS is that Allah’s love never decreases for us. He is always there for all His support, mercy & love. It depends on us whether we can try calling Him once or not =) He ALWAYS answers our call, whether we understand it at that very moment or not.

Darkness, as a matter of fact, teaches us the meaning and significance of light. Darkness makes us search for light. In that quest, aware of our weaknesses, we usually feel tired and decide to give in rather than stand up to it. It’s only the helplessness, which makes one realize the existence of Someone with higher authorities… Someones who loves us unconditionally… Someone who is watching and waiting for us to call Him.

“And He found you lost, and guided [you]” [93:7]

It’s commonly said that some lessons are best learned through pain. Somethings can only be understood in peaks of pain & haunting, when a new journey is ready to begin. Sometimes our visions become clear only after our eyes are washed with tears. Sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again. Whatever of ache your heart is feeling right now, trust Allah. Hold on :) No matter what happens, where life takes you, hold on to your relationship with Allah. Because when we lose God, it is not God who is lost rather it’s our very own soul.

And while covering the journey from darkness to light, Allah’s love for us starts depicting itself in signs spread all around us. Who says miracles don’t happen? They happen, in every day life, in minutest of things, IF only we ‘try’ to reflect. And these signs have the potential to make any wanderer a ‘wonderer’ under the shade of Immortal Love.

Having Allah in your heart does not mean in your heart does not mean that you won’t be facing any storm. Rather it means that NO storm can be able to sink your boat. So no matter what happens, always trust His love for you and trust the plans of wisdom higher than yours.

Don’t let your source of fulfillment be anything other than your relationship with Allah. Don’t let your definition of success, failure, or self-worth be anything other than your position with Him. And if and when you do this, you become unbreakable, because your handhold is unbreakable. You become unconquerable, because your supporter can never be conquered. And you will NEVER become empty, because your source of fulfillment is unending and never diminishes.

Before this year ends, let us pray that may we have the hindsight to know where we’ve been, the foresight to know where we are going, and the insight to know when we have gone too far. May Allah be our guider and helper in all we do because His forgiveness is wider than our sins and we have more hope in His mercy than in our own deeds :)

O Lord, grant me your love, grant me that I love those who love you; grant me, that I might do the deeds that win your love. Make your love dearer to me than the love of myself, my family and wealth. (Tirmidhi)

Ameen sum ameen.

PS: My this post is dedicated to Noor’e Eemaan & Loyals.

JazakAllah Baba. Fari Baji, I miss you! =)



Aghraz ke gehray pardon mein,

Alfaaz ke jhootay rangon mein,

Har shaks muhabbat karta hai,

Hallankay muhabbat kuch bhi nahin.

Kia tum waqiye itnay dilkash ho?

Ya meri nazar ka dhoka hai?

Main tum se muhabbat karti hon,

Hallanke muhabbat kuch bhi nahin.


In deep realms of desires,

In deceptive colours of words,

Love reaches to every soul,

Despite knowing that it’s nothing.

Does the attraction really forms you?

Or is it just my madness making me blind?

I can’t stop loving you for a moment,

Despite knowing that it’s nothing.

Composed & Translated by:

Hira Zainab

Illuminati Touch…

Yeah… My life has recently sensed illumanati touch by drawings made by a very dear friend of mine =) The way Illumanatis use symbols to represent a word depicting a proper theme :) Here, diamond is used to depict my name and corresponding themes :D Here are the images given below:

Let ‘Hira’ see the world in all dimensions… And let the world see ‘hira’ embedded on a diamond..

Because they say:
‘The soul is placed in the body like a rough diamond, and must be polished, or the luster of it will never appear’.

And the second one is the complicated version:

Since twists and turns constitute the major part of one’s life, let ‘Hira’ see the twisted world and turned life and let the world see the twined & twisted Hira on a dimond, a hard rock.

“And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if there weren’t any other people living in the world.”

PS: I really wuv my saheli :)) And really glad to have her as a precious blessing in my life. =)

Personality Analysis: Momal Mushtaq (Mo!)

Okay now! This friend of mine, Momal Mushtaq, has been insisting me to write a personality analysis of her ‘for’ her relations since she thinks that I kind of understand her the most :) I dunno if that’s true or not… All I know is anyone who’ll spend some time with her will automatically get to know things very easily :)

Mo aka Momal Mushtaq, a girl who may not be the first one to start conversation and may seem shy at first but once you’ll get to know her and somehow if you’ve been ‘lucky’ enough to get close to her then she won’t shut up :p and you won’t even like her to stop :) It’s hard to put in words what I know about her but she’s one person who’ll keep trying, never quits and keep improving which makes her stand tall among the line of ‘real’ winners :) She is one of rare people who always tend to be ‘self-aware’ rather than running away from their negative aspects.

Lost in the world of her imagination and fairy-tales, she is a person with a small world and one who actually knows how to VALUE the wideness of that small world. :) Her expectations are TOTALLY dependent on her dealings. She expects to be dealt the same way she deals with people (and she expects things only from her closed ones). And she feels hurt if her expectations aren’t fulfilled :)

And when she feels hurt, she gets out of mind. TOTALLY :P. And she doesn’t even realize what she keeps on saying then :p It’s just that when her heart burst in a ‘hurt’ mode, her mind also stops working :p So if she’s angry and saying pinching things, don’t mind, just know that she HERSELF doesn’t know what she is saying :p and it’s SO true sach me :D

Possessing a sensitive soul, she tends to get worried easily. With a HIGHLY moody attitude, she often starts behaving in a crazy manner. :P But dun worry, her ‘low and crazy’ moods don’t last long and soon she’ll be back with same happy-go attitude and realization of the fact that she was wrong :P which is actually a distinctive part because very less people in this world have courage to ADMIT that they can be wrong as well :)

Busy in her own little world, her thoughts and worries revolve around ‘her’ world. Her this attribute often leads her to being a self-centred person but she manages to come out of the boundaries of her world just for sake of her loved ones :)

Being one of her kind and genuine in her attributes, she seeks her inner light and always is in pursuit of happiness which lies within her. That’s why she is always found happy and in love with her :)

The significance of little things can’t be understood by anyone except this young lady. She values small loving gestures to an EXTREME extent :) One doesn’t have to do big things to bring smile on her lips or to remove her annoyance (it’s not that big things don’t make her happy :P they do!) but just a special gesture from her loved ones is enough to make her day :) She appreciates and likes to be appreciated. All she needs is a pure and special concern :)

And like someone once said that, ‘A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked’. So my dear Mo, we all know and value you because you’re a gem of a person DESPITE knowing that you’re crazy. :p We take your craziness as your individuality :) This craziness makes you Mo :)

‘She may be impatient, makes mistakes, out of control and at times too hard to handle… BUT if you can’t handle at her worst then you don’t deserve her at her best =) ‘.

They say that ‘A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow’. So to everyone related to Mo, I would say only this that consider the existence of this relation as a special blessing in your life because it really IS cherish-able :)

I am sowiee Mo if I haven’t been able to do justice :( I just ran out of words :( Just know that I love you and want to see you happy always =) <3

Confession Court

Blessings to everyone reading this post =)

Hehe… Am back, FINALLY! =p

Sounds unbelievable, ehh? And temporal too! =P But I just hope that it won’t be, this time =)
A lot has happened in this duration, a lot of changes have surrounded my my life… and well, precisely this is exactly what ‘life’ is all about. Day to day to struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world’s creatures. As human beings, when we encounter a challenge, we have freedom to CHOOSE how to react. Every decision that we make leads us down another road. We will never come to exactly the same crossroads. Every decision the we make has significance. The tiniest choice that is made reverberates throughout the entire universe. Such an amalgam of happenings my life has become, making me see a hopeless tomorrow with a doubtful future. There’s a fear inside of me that no one can explain, not even me. I seem to be walking on treacherous grounds not even I can see. But for now all I want to do is keep my head above ground with faith that a day is near when I surely WILL meet the fears in me =) And will set them aside in days that go by, and only look back to see the fear that WAS in me. I’ve been slowly dying, that’s what’s inside of me. A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes, creating a void. I stood a mute witness to see it all happening, thinking of a reason to define my thoughts again in order to bring a new meaning to pointless reign, trying to revive a cycle to refresh the damaged cause.

In middle of all this chaos related to me, I still see the strength within me, to fight. Strength induced in me by faith in ALLAH. But in addition to that, I sense a courage brought to me by the people who love me. And today, I want to thank all of them because their presence really makes me stand tall in the season of fall.

Mama: You are source of energy in my life =) I owe you my life. You’re the perfect mother I could ever think of having in my life!

Hammad: The most sincere friend and the most PURE relation one can possibly possess :) He’s one person with whom I’ve shared things which I can’t even THINK of sharing with anyone else. He’s one person whose words REALLY effect and matter for me. I trust him more than myself. (And yeah Hammad, I know you don’t like my blog to be a centre point for depressed souls :p just lemme write 2-3 posts and then I’ll be fine, I promise *innocent smiley* )

Dedi: I might be related to her in more ways than I can count but there’s only one role in which she fits, a Dedi. Your ‘current’ presence in my life is one of BIGGEST achievements in my life =) I may never end up being a proper daughter but you ALWAYS end up being a perfect Dedi. I loose words to respond to your overwhelming love always =) All i know is that you’re someone for whom I have felt EVERY little kind of emotion and someone who has taken form of EVERY little kind of relation in my life, from a mother to a mentor to a teacher to a sister to a friend.

Aapi: She’s someone who I know I can ALWAYS count on, no matter what happens. She has been with me from the beginning, through thick and thin, and no storm could ever be able to take her away from my life or weaken our bond. Distance, no matter how far, can’t change the way WE feel for eachother. Haina aapi? :)

Mano aka Fati: You’re the reason to the fact that friendship matters a LOT in my life now =) From your ever-lasting supports to strong understanding to unspoken love, everything makes you a special friend. Thank you for everything.

Mo: As I had said earlier, you are the ray of hope in my life :) You make me realize that ‘little special things’ DO matter and bring miracles.

Momo: Even if we never spent long durations with eachother, the special essence of OUR bond remains intact. :)

Maria: Out of everyone, WE share the longest relation :) You were the person who ‘introduced’ friendship in my life and every moment spent with you is saved in my mind as a special cherishing memory.

Saba Nazir: You still ARE part of sincere and honest friends I am blessed with, in my life =) Even if ‘I’ don’t remain in contact *innocent smiley*, it doesn’t change your position in my life.

Aun: Very few people succeed in making a “distinctive” place in our lives after a very short period of time. Also, there are very few people which make you feel real “comfortable” in their company. And you’re one of those specific and few people in my life:) We’ve not been friends for long. But purity and honesty in our bond is enough to be considered among the special blessings I have in my life :)

Fari aka Abstract Fantasy: You’re one of ever-lasting supports in my life. Your silent yet strong support has various times lifted up my spirits. I know I’ve failed you many a times but you never uttered a word =) and it makes you have a real distinctive place.

Sana Afzal: You’re the angel of my life :)

Aashi Jee: I miss you… LOTS! But you ARE a gem I have found in my life :)

SB: They say relationship doesn’t get closer by meetings, but it is sweetened by THOUGHTS. One’s care and concern doesn’t need to be expressed through words, it’s a sensation which is unique in its existance and feeling. Thank you SB for your special concern always. You’re my twin afterall =)

Saleem: I really have NO idea ke aap kiss mitti se bane ho =) But your special concern every time matters a lot. Be blessed wherever you remain.

Seemi & Haidar Miraj: Thank you for making me part of your dream, Tamasha =) It made me understand and learn things I couldn’t have learned in any other way.

That I love you all is NO wonder. But the fact you all care about someone like me and be there for me always, that is VERY special =)

Special thanks to Ghazi Aitizaz for constantly forcing me to write when I myself thought to have forgotten how to write. Also thanks to all those who kept on visiting my blog even when it was stuck and non-active.

Dedicated to my all loved ones :)

Beatitudes For Friends of People with Disabilities

~Blessed are you who take the time to listen to difficult speech. For you help me know that if I persevere, I can be understood.
~Blessed are you who never bid me to “hurry up” or take my tasks from me. For I need time, rather than help.
~Blessed are you who stand beside me as I enter new and untried ventures. For my failures will be out-weighed by the times I surprise you and myself.
~Blessed are you who ask for help, for my greatest need is to be needed.
~Blessed are you who never remind me that today I asked the same question twice.
~Blessed are you who respect me and love me just as I am!!

I had posted it in a forum almost two years back :) Now when I read it, I feel a sense of gratitude and BEING blessed in my heart along with a desire to say out loudly, that it’s ME who’s blessed because of YOU!

Thank you everyone for making ME blessed with your existence..

Love you all (: *group hug*

Dedication for My Loved ones..

Wont waste my time in saying some thing ordinary but as i read this poem,many of my beloveds came into my mind..Very simple yet heart touching (: And this one’s dedicated to you all…Some of my beloveds may not find chance to read it ever,but.. (:

I love you more than life itself
But I’m afraid to love.
My heart is like the fragile wings
Of a tiny little dove.

I’m scared to get too close.
I feel that I can’t win.
You’ll love me for a little while
Then you’ll set me free again.

I’ve lived so long on hopes and dreams
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t think I can trust my heart,
For it belongs to you.

I know you’ll only hurt me
Yet, I still keep running back.
Between the paths of our hearts
There’s a worn and beaten track.

You’ve got my heart held on a string.
It’s breaking right in two.
Enough belongs to me -to hurt-
The rest belongs to you.

I know that somewhere in your heart
There is a place for me.
I just don’t know how to find it
And there’s no way to make you see.

I can only hope that someday
You’ll wake up and you’ll find,
That while my heart belongs to yours,
Yours, too, belongs to mine…